I am confused all the time. Seriously, I really am confused all the time. Many people talk to me as though they agree with me about different subjects, but majority of the time I don't know if I agree with me. I believe one thing one moment and then I am not sure the next. People that agrivate me the most are people so sure of themselves. They are so sure of themselves that they always act like everything is so simple.

The weird thing now is... I am starting to take pride in being confused and confusing. It is more theraputic than nodding my head in approval or saying I understand.

For example, when I first got married. Many people said, "One day you will wake up and ask what the blank happened, this is not what I had planned." Five years later I say, I was confused from the beginning of marriage and I had some false motives (if you know what i mean). You see what had happened was marriage woke me up to true love. I need somebody who knows I am confused and knows when I am actin a fool trying to convince people I am generally not confused.

This is who I am... I think.