somethins been eating at me for sometime now and it has something to do with you.

i can't get you to stop bugging me. its like trying to forget about not having my coffee this morning or sitting in church council meeting during the Colts/Pats playoff game. as much as I try and focus on whats at hand, it just seems to come back and haunt me to the point of salivating, daydreaming, plotting, and wrestless twitching.

i just want to attempt to fix it.

you see, as a blogging rookie way back in the day (a couple a months ago), i immaturely did and said some things to you that i meant, but poorly communicated. Therefore, i feel as though i dropped bombs.

one BOMB - i said "Screw You" to you. this was regarding to what you think about me.

please hear my apology. this is definitely not the only bomb i need to seek forgiveness about, but i am convicted. if there is one thing i need, its you. i work for a paycheck. i give in order to get. i like you in hopes of you liking me. these are not bad, but i spend enough time with the mirror to know you are not fooled.

i need work on you, instead of i. i love myself and thats evident, but these need work: plotting on you for you. thinking on you for you. working for you. giving to you for you.

you've really got the potential i have been looking for. maybe if you look in the mirror with me, i will have the missing marbles. not to be mistaken with first loving God with all my heart. i have tried that by myself and it brings me back to you(good song).